I was on a roll; losing weight, exercising, and making better food choices…
Then I started the downward spiral. One binged turned into a whole day, which turned into a whole week.
What is wrong with me? Why is this so hard? Why can't I just do this?
Let me tell you a little story...
I had a deep desire to be thin. At times, I would get to a healthy weight, but then a week later I was putting the pounds back on.
It's like I got to this goal and then I fell back into my old patterns. Then my actions did not fall in line with what I said I wanted.
I continued to sabotage myself, which lead to thinking something was wrong with me and I was just destined to be overweight but wanting to be thin.
Until I realized something...
No, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him who loved us. Romans 8:37
See, for so long I was only focused on the food, the exercise, the scale. I believed the "right" formula, the "right" diet, the "right" exercise would fix me. I thought I should be able to figure this out.
I was stuck. Stuck in this never ending pattern of gaining and losing, feeling really good and feeling terrible, loving myself and hating myself.
That's when I went searching. Mostly in the wrong places at first...
Until I found this passage:
Be careful how you think; your life is shaped by your thoughts. Proverbs 4:23
Food doesn't shape my life. My actions don't even shape my life.
I had never even really thought about my thoughts before. I guess I never knew they mattered. I knew I had them, but I didn't understand the impact of them. Come to find out, I was having approximately 60,000 thoughts a day, without really understanding the power they held.
As someone thinks within himself, so he is. Proverbs 23:7
That's because what we think determines how we feel. And how we feel influence how we choose to act. And all our actions accumulated over time create the results we have in our life.
Have you ever had those weeds that seem to vine out and you can never find the root? If or when you do find the root and try to pull it, it seems like some magical pull from the center of the earth is keeping it stuck.
Since you can’t get the root out, the weed just keeps growing back, making it feel like you are in the movie Groundhog's Day.
I never got to the root of the problem... my thinking about me, my body, my actions.
Long, sustained natural, healthy weight comes from thinking thoughts about how God gave you this GIFT of your body. He even calls it a temple (1 Corinthians 6:19).
Healthy living comes from knowing God put here so you can experience joy and thinking you are worth having it.
A healthy weight sustains itself from thinking thought of “I want to do this. I love living this way."
Because, those thoughts, right there, will lead you to the actions of eating well and moving your body. They lead to mentally and emotionally caring for yourself. They lead to a stronger relationship with God.
Taking these actions don't become so hard anymore when your mind is renewed.
What is essential to Christian weight loss?
Capturing your thoughts. Knowing them, understanding them, and changing them by bringing them to Christ.
We demolish arguments and every pretension that sets itself up against the knowledge of God, and we take captive every thought to make it obedient to Christ. 2 Corinthian 10:5